From: Harris Khan
Date: May 26, 2010 6:44:43 PM CDT
It is with the heaviest of hearts that I inform you all that earlier today my mother lost her seven year battle with breast cancer. We all flew out here to England to be with her these final few days. You all have had the pleasure of meeting my mother and I am sure you all know just what an amazing person she was. She never made any excuses and always kept a smile on her face even though she had so much going on. Not one person ever had anything bad to say about her; people really loved her presence.
This has been a hard time for all of us. Please, please come to grips with the reality that nothing in this life matters. NOTHING. It is silly to get caught up in senseless and small arguments and to be obsessive over material things or your job. People have always said this, time and time again, yet it never has really sunken in until now. Please take this to heart now so that it doesn't take losing someone close to you to really grasp that meaning. This life is so short; my mother was only 51 years old. We must use our limited time here to gain Allah's pleasure every single day and to work for him.
This is by far the most difficult thing I have ever had to go through. Every step of the way was just so painful. We weren't sure if Shamoon was going to make it in time to see my Mom, so she called him frantically during an emergency trip to the hospital and said her final goodbyes and gave advice to follow after she passed. It was so hard to watch, but Alhumdulillah Shamoon made it yesterday on the last day that my mother would be conscious and able to talk. Additionally, seeing my father read to my mother her will and break down in the middle was heartbreaking. And of course seeing my mother laying there helpless as I held her hand and she took her final breath was just excruciatingly difficult. I have never cried so much in my life.
Yet there are many positives to this as well. I consider myself fortunate that I had closure on the whole situation and this just wasn't some sudden event. My mother had one on one time with me, then my brother, and then my father as she asked everyone else to leave the room during these moments. I asked her everything that I wanted to and she told me everything that she wanted to, leaving no doors unopened. I am also happy that my mother passed in a state of full iman.
She BY FAR was the best Muslim that I knew. She never missed a prayer and related everything in life to how it would please Allah. She never made any excuses and always tried to learn something new everyday. She had absolutely no regrets in her final days and I can say that she was ready to leave this world knowing she did everything in her power to please Allah. Lastly, my mother felt no pain during her final days.
The doctors were very good at predicting her stages and adjusted her morphine and sedation to how they saw fit. On the last day she was completely knocked out and died in her sleep.
I am also thankful that she was surrounded by so many loving people. Her sisters flew in and made sure that the last words my mother would hear and attempt to repeat in her head was la ilaha illallah Mu?ammadur rasulullah.. .for hours.
I ask you all to please make dua for my mother and that she can reach the highest levels of heaven insha'Allah. Please tell your friends and family to do the same. My mother deserves the best of places in Jannah and I am confident that with all of your guys' help she will attain it. I will live the rest of my life to fulfill all of her wishes and to be as good of a servant to Allah as she was.
The world lost a great person today. I loved her so so so much. I consider myself lucky that I was able to tell her this over and over again throughout the years. Please don't take the time with your parents for granted either.
Make sure that they know you are trying everyday to make them proud and that they know you love them.
Jazakallah everyone for your time and your duas. I wish you all the very best. Inna lillahi wa inna ilayhi raji'un.
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