Kelly Lea Beadle

You came along from far away and found me here. I was feeling down, fooling around and hitting the beer. You picked me up from off the floor and gave me a smile. You said, "You're much too young, your life ain't begun let's walk for awhile."

I miss you so very much. I miss your warm smile, kindness, compassion, love of cats and your unconditional love. Your face was like a poem and your eyes like heaven. You were the rose of my life. I only wish you would have come to me and talked to me about the misery you felt, how much you were struggling and how much pain you were in. I know I could have helped you and made a difference. I feel terrible guilt, pain and shame about your death everyday. I should have been there for you at your moment of greatest need but I was not and I apologize to you, your family and especially your children for that shortcoming. I will carry the guilt of your death with me for the rest of my life. God if I only could have seen it coming I could have helped and you would still be here today making every life you touch better.

I will never forget you and I will always love you. I pray the demons that haunted you are gone and you are finally at peace. No more pain, no more fear and no more guilt. Oh how I wish we could "walk for awhile" just one more time.

Thanks for shining your light into my life. I love you my sweet Kelly and to love another person is to see the face of God. I will see you in heaven.

Goodbye, farewell and amen.

Love,

Andy