Dad, six months ago today, you left us. The pain you suffered through was too much for any man to bear, but you did it everyday for seventeen plus years. A lot has happened since you left us. On your sports note, your red sox put up a hell of a fight, just like you, but they could not finish the job. and your patriots they are kicking butt. they got a shot to win it all!! lets keep our fingers crossed Dad. We had christmas and new years, and everyone of us just treated it like any other day. NOTHING and I mean Nothing is the same without you. Daddy i missed putting up the tree and lights with you, i missed hearing that beautiful voice singing my favorite christmas hymns in church, and all of our favorites, White Christmas. Dad, I LOVE YOU, honestly i can be selfish, i am only human, you were way too young to die. i mean damn you were only 48. there was so much more all of us needed from you. william 4th birthday is today, he still remembers when i hit that homerun for you and we all hugged and cried. he missed his uncle skip. Dad you will never get to meet my wife, but you will be seeing her. you will never get me to toss you a ball in my first professional baseball game, but i know you WILL be watching. Mom thanks you for the money, you know exactly what i mean too lol. Dad to be honest i am a different person since you left. i am empty, angry, lonely, and even depressed sometimes. Dad i want to just be able to tell you one more time i love you, and give you a hug, as you say it to me too. i heard on tv tonight that all dads are very proud of their sons. well Dad i hope i am making you proud, its not easy, it never will be, but i just want you to be able what i say about you everyday. i tell everyone that I HAVE THE GREATEST DAD IN THE WHOLE WORLD, i want you to be able to say in Heaven, that you have the 2 BEST SONS IN THE WHOLE WORLD! I hope we make you proud Dad, I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU!!!