How do I begin to describe the most beautiful man on the planet. He was a loving and devoted son and father, brother, cousin, nephew and friend.  He just wanted a normal family. He did not want to repeat my mistakes and it looked like he was going to. All he wanted was to keep his son and his son's mother together as a family.  When that looked like it wasn't going to happen he took his own life.  Why would anyone take their own lives. I am sure that they do not understand the devestation they leave behind.  My son never left my cube at work, or my house or hung up the phone without telling me he loved me. But he left me here with no goodbye no I love you. And that is something I try to live with every day.  He was the best son a mother could ever have wished for.  I was proud of him..... he just couldn't see.....